There is a line in Out of Africa that says, "Perhaps he knew, as I did not, that the Earth was made round so that we would not see too far down the road. " I have felt that sense of life these last 4 months.
So much going on, so many concerns...and now, I noticed that Ranger has some sort of eye condition that looks too damned much like the beginnings of Pannus. So...now I have to move more quickly on the Doggles acquisition (UV light seems to hasten progress of disease) because there is no way he will only go out at night. I've already been trying to limit his playtime though he doesn't understand.
Trooper does not want to consider it, not having it in him to add that burden just now. I cannot blame him at all. We each have our "blind spots" these days to avoid seeing what we cannot fix. I fret over so much and there is so little I can do about it. I try to just concentrate on what I can do but it seems a pitiful little...
I try to remind myself that many people are dealing with much worse. But the stoic side of me just wants to admit it all is just as it appears: falling apart, flying apart like cogs from a broken machine. I feel as though I'm just dodging schrapnel. But I suppose that's something.